Praying In The Rain



Reflections on the Inner Life from Canada's Pacific Coast - Fr. Michael Gillis reflects on the inner life of Orthodox Christians. Drawing on the wisdom of both ancient and contemporary Church Fathers, Fr. Michael ponders the struggles, the ironies, and the disciplines of the spiritual life.


  • Marriage and Baptism

    Marriage and Baptism

    13/01/2021 Duração: 13min

    If we do not work on that relationship, if we do not nurture longing for God, if we do not take the time to nurture our inner life, then we also grow apart from God. We are still baptized, still joined to Christ, but growing apart we become bored with God, our longing wanders to more exciting possibilities; and if we are not careful, God become a stranger, even an enemy to us. And this, perhaps, is what hell is like: to be joined to God, yet be bored with Him; to go to your own wedding, despising your fiance; to spend eternity knowing that you ignored for a lifetime the God who loves you so much that he allows you even to ignore His love.

  • Going to Hell

    Going to Hell

    05/01/2021 Duração: 08min

    Fr. Michael suggests that going to hell, or going to heaven, for that matter, will not be new or unfamiliar for most people.

  • Choices and God’s Will

    Choices and God’s Will

    29/12/2020 Duração: 11min

    Fr. Michael presents the first of a series of blog posts that have not yet been shared as podcasts. Here he deconstructs the notion that choice translates into freedom.

  • Choices and God’s Will

    Choices and God’s Will

    11/08/2020 Duração: 12min

    Fr. Michael Gillis reads a blog post from 2010, entitled "Choices and God's Will". "For the overwhelming majority of the people in the world throughout history, what they would eat, where they would live, what work they would do and even whom they would marry was not a matter of their choice. As far as such matters were concerned, God’s will for their life was determined for them. The choice was not whether or not to harvest the grain on the master’s estate; the choice was whether or not to entrust yourself to God, not grumble against your master, work with your whole heart, and love your fellow laborers. The only real choice for a Christian has always only been: “Will I be a Christian right now, today?”"

  • The Juice of our Soul

    The Juice of our Soul

    26/05/2020 Duração: 16min

    I have found that it is usually better for me to say nothing at the beginning, at the moment I feel like saying something. At that moment, it is usually best not to say anything because if I say something the very moment I feel like saying it, the juice is not sweet. It’s sour. And no matter how true or right what I have to say is, all the hearer notices is the sour, bitter, angry or judgemental note hidden in my words.

  • Hope in God’s Mercy

    Hope in God’s Mercy

    14/05/2020 Duração: 09min

    We have to remember the mighty things God has already done in our life. We have to remember that whatever good we may have done is also a mercy. We could have just as easily done wrong, just as easily gone the wrong way, just as easily said the wrong thing. It is God’s mercy that has saved us, and it is God’s mercy that will save us again, not our ability to figure it out.

  • The Feast of Mid-Pentecost

    The Feast of Mid-Pentecost

    12/05/2020 Duração: 07min

    For all that Christ accomplished for our salvation at Pascha, it remains still for us to receive it. And for us to receive the resurrected Life, we have to thirst for it. All of the blessings and gifts and graces of heaven are ours through Christ, but God will not force them on us. God will only give us the heavenly gifts if we thirst for them.

  • Why Don’t Temptations Go Away?

    Why Don’t Temptations Go Away?

    02/05/2020 Duração: 11min

    In homily 69, St. Isaac reminds us that temptations to sin come upon all people, even the “perfect.” Quoting freely from St. Macarius of Alexandria, St. Isaac reminds us that our inner state is rather like the weather. “There is cold, and soon after, burning heat, and then perhaps even hail, and after a little, fair weather.”

  • Raising Lazarus and Seeing with Faith

    Raising Lazarus and Seeing with Faith

    12/04/2020 Duração: 12min

    Some of us may be facing death at this time—just as Lazarus did. Some of us may have a loved one who has or will soon die—as Mary and Martha did. And some of us, most of us probably, are just largely inconvenienced. And with the Churches closed, all of us may be wondering with Mary and Martha where Jesus is, for if Jesus were here, surely He would not let this happen. But Jesus is here. The same Jesus who raised Lazarus from the tomb, also first allowed him to ‘fall asleep’ in the tomb.

  • Holy Embezzlement

    Holy Embezzlement

    11/11/2019 Duração: 15min

    Luke 16 contains one of the most difficult to understand parables of Jesus. It is commonly called the parable of the Unjust Steward. For most of my life the parable offended me. Like the Pharisees in 16:14, I want to deride Jesus for telling a parable that, on the face of it, advocates embezzlement. The servant in the parable gets sacked for “wasting” his master’s goods, so the servant decides to earn favor with his master’s debtors by writing off a large part of the debt they owe the master. And what makes this parable particularly hard to stomach is that the master actually commends his servant for doing this. After sacking the servant for wasting his funds, the master commends him for embezzling them. How does that make sense?

  • Finding Peace Despite Sinful Thoughts

    Finding Peace Despite Sinful Thoughts

    29/06/2019 Duração: 18min

    Fr. Michael Gillis uses a gardening analogy to discuss dealing with the deep-rooted sins in life.

  • Success Through Failure In Lent

    Success Through Failure In Lent

    04/04/2019 Duração: 23min
  • Knowing Your Measure

    Knowing Your Measure

    13/03/2019 Duração: 15min
  • The Manuscript of Our Life

    The Manuscript of Our Life

    31/01/2019 Duração: 19min
  • Everyday Ironies: Finding Salvation In The World

    Everyday Ironies: Finding Salvation In The World

    17/11/2018 Duração: 17min
  • Reading Spiritual Texts: Knowing That You Don’t Know

    Reading Spiritual Texts: Knowing That You Don’t Know

    12/10/2018 Duração: 16min
  • On Perceiving God’s Glory in Another

    On Perceiving God’s Glory in Another

    07/09/2018 Duração: 13min
  • Response To A Question on Buddhist Meditation

    Response To A Question on Buddhist Meditation

    02/07/2018 Duração: 17min
  • Some Thoughts on Anger

    Some Thoughts on Anger

    05/06/2018 Duração: 18min
  • On Closed Communion

    On Closed Communion

    28/03/2018 Duração: 17min
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